I grew up a cultural Christian. I was born into a Community of Christ family. My grandparents were deeply devoted to the church. My great-grandfather and great-great grandfather served the church for decades generations before. The ideas of God, faith, and finding my testimony were part of my upbringing. I felt God in church, heard incredible testimonies from old church members, and knew many who talked with humble surety about God. I went to reunion every year and had indescribable spiritual experiences at youth camps. Growing up in the church, I came to know the love of God first hand. But, it wasn’t until I studied scripture with others outside my church that I was truly converted to Jesus. Before, I knew Jesus was somehow connected to the Spirit I felt and came to know in the church. But, when I finally studied the scriptures with others different from me, I encountered the Jesus who could save the world. It happened when I read the account of Jesus’ feet washing in John 13.
I was in seminary studying with people who didn’t live the same life as I did. Most, on the surface, were very different from me. There was Anthony, the gifted dancer, who decided to go to seminary and follow his heart and get an M.Div, even though he was slowing dying with HIV. There was Sharon, the electrician, who was streetwise and used to being disrespected because she was poor, black, female, and a lesbian. There was Mary, who was spending four years and thousands of dollars in seminary although her Orthodox church would never ordain her because she was a woman. There was Laura, the Mennonite, who lived in community with my family and I, who taught me incredible generosity. And Gloria, who grew up on the south side of Chicago and knew white people only as authority figures, hopelessly selfish, vindictive, and evil until she was an adult.
Together, we shared devotions, studied the bible, and talked extensively. We read scholars with unpopular perspectives because they lived, ministered, and were members of unpopular communities. We read theologians who considered the bible in its setting: among the poor, among the people who the powerful label, won’t live near, and perennially blame. Reading Jesus’ feet washing in John 13 with Anthony, Sharon, Gloria, Mary and Laura took on brand new meaning for me. It became clear to me that if every leader of the world simply followed Jesus’ example: if they would just sup, bend down, and wash the feet of their friends and enemies, the world would be a radically different place. It would be so different, it wouldn’t be the world it is now. The world would be fundamentally changed in the most radical and transforming way. The world would be upside-down.
Two people stood out to me in John 13. As Jesus washed the feet of Judas, Jesus knew he was going to betray him (John 13:26-27). Was Judas confused? Did he simply misunderstand? Was he Jesus’ enemy? We don’t know. But, he would play the part of Jesus’ adversary. Jesus knew it, and washed and wiped his feet anyway.
Jesus’ interaction with Peter is also deep with meaning. Peter is the most visible and eager of the disciples. But, Peter had no idea what Jesus was doing. He first denied Jesus’ offer to wash his feet. But, Jesus compassionately, yet firmly, gave Peter a choice. Hearing it, Peter responded excessively, “Wash my feet and my hands and head as well!” (John 13:9) But, at the cross Peter would deny him again. (John 13:37-38) Jesus knowingly humbles himself before betrayal and failed loyalty.
Jesus’ feet washing was the culmination of his life and ministry. It was clearest statement of Jesus’ invitation, “Come, follow me.” The gospel of John has no Lord’s supper. This is it. In verse 14, Jesus states “Now that I have washed your feet, you also should wash one another’s feet.” This is what Jesus is asking us to do in John. This is John’s version of “Do this in memory of me.”
Reading John 13 in this new community of Christ – with Laura, Gloria, Sharon, Anthony, Mary, and others – I found the savior the world was seeking. He was the same one we all were seeking. It wasn’t this or that version of Jesus. It wasn’t the Jesus of religion. I found the living Christ in John’s story of Jesus, the one who had the power to change the world and all of history.
What if Jesus led? What would our world be like? The other question is, would we follow?….or rather, will we?
Finding Home.
Feb 16
Posted by ratchy
What I feel even more certain of now, is that “home” changes. It may not always be defined as where your family members live. But, is it truly just “where your heart is”? What if your heart is in more than one place? What if those places are on separate continents? Do you have to designate only one place as “home”? Is it possible to make a place your home if it doesn’t fit these criteria?
So if our physical and emotional homes change, can our spiritual homes change too?
As we grow and discover more about ourselves, we discover new truths, new paths to journey, and new ways of being. If we’ve felt we found a spiritual home in one place, one congregation, or one aspect of nature, what happens when that changes? What happens when the people we grew up with in our community change, or we discover a new direction for our lives? What happens when that old tree where we experienced God so many times all of a sudden gets torn down or replanted? Was it where the tree was that we found a spiritual home, or the tree itself? Will we ever find that connection somewhere else?
I think it is hard to rely on anything outside of our selves to be considered home. There are too many uncontrollable variables to be dependent on anything else for permanent grounding and expecting eternal contentment and connection from one specific place, or one group of people, or one unchanging idea. We have to be open to the possibility that these “homes”, although they may be our foundations, are not necessarily going to be in the same place, look the same, or feel the same, forever.
I think this can also apply within our church communities. Foundations and traditions are great building blocks to set us off from, but if we are so attached and too comfortable in these foundational homes that we refuse to grow from them or explore new territories of possibilities, then we will never be able to find contentment anywhere else. One day these foundations could fall to pieces – then what? And who knows what else is out there that we could be missing?!
Perhaps something to strive for (although I firmly admit this is idealistic) is: to know our selves and our God as intimately as we can, and to be confident enough to take that personal and spiritual strength with us wherever we go. Having that core strength and contentment with our selves; while allowing ourselves to be guided as we change as individuals, communities of Christ, and as our relationship with God changes; will help us learn, grow, and better adapt to each new “home” (literal or spiritual) that we find. So there will in fact be “no place like home”, because we are able to be at home with everyone and everywhere we go.
“We shape our dwellings, and afterwards our dwellings shape us” – Sir Winston Churchill
Where is your home? Where is your spiritual home? How will you cope if your definition of “home” changes? Are you confident enough in yourself and your relationship with God to be able to find a home no matter where you are? If not, what can you do to work towards that?
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